Okay, today is day thirty-nine. I realized a very important thing in my life. It is that I'm alive and all the duties, cares and responsibilities don't really matter. And the only time I feel good is when I just don't care about anything. It is not just ignoring everything. It is being yourself in a first place.

Because we're living beings... and we are designed to live... and to do things. So things that makes us think or act not very lively are bad. I kind of got inspired after reading Allen Carr's "No More Worrying". And I describe this my new lifestyle as "feeling great" that is basically the same to "no more worrying". Just when you focus on not worrying, you actually think about worrying and that doesn't help. Feeling great to me is when you not only say that to yourself, but you begin to realize and feel it. It is strange how I never thought about it before. But then I recall some feeling very similar to this when I was about ten years old. I was very happy and everything was awesome, because I did not have to worry about anything. I was just ME! And now I feel that I'm just ME and there are nothing around me that makes my me different in a bad way. I don't feel egoistic, because I still care about other people I'm just feeling great.
P.S. Smashmouth's song "Allstar"/"Hey now you are rockstar" inspires me a lot too.